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4 stone lighter – the new me

If you have read any of my previous blogs you will know that I have struggled with my weight for years and have tried every diet under the sun.  Nothing has ever worked and I tend to lose a 1lb and put on 2lb!!  I always used to say I’m happy how I am, I got used to not being able to do certain things and took on the role of the bubbly big girl that was complemented on her smile!!  Deep down I was miserable about being overweight, but felt helpless as I’d failed at so many diets and was scared to start another.

 

There have been many occasions over the years where I have hit rock bottom and decided to try and lose weight.  Most times are triggered by an event or comment, some hurtful or embarrassing, usually resulting in me laughing it off and saying ”I’m happy as I am”, but deep down I’d be so ashamed.  So I’d start a new diet, stick to it for a month, lose half a stone then feel sorry for myself, have a treat, then before you know it I was back to old habits.

 

In April of this year, when I was feeling very low about my weight,  my friend suggested Lighter Life.  There is a history to my experience of Lighter Life, as the same friend took me there 3 years ago and I remember leaving in tears as the leader had explained the plan and I realised that I wouldn’t be able to eat normal food, even on Christmas day!!  It all seemed too strict and the thought of not drinking, cooking and eating just didn’t fit in with my lifestyle.  So I didn’t start and vowed I would never go back to that “awful place” again.  My friend did start and went on to lose 3 stone!!  So when Lighter Life was mentioned I was filled with dread, however I was desperate to do something drastic!

 

Lighter Life consists of a managed food program of food packs replacing your normal meals.  They provide around 600 calories in total and contain the protein, fatty acids, vitamins and minerals needed on a daily basis.  You also go to a weekly meeting and talk about habits, behaviour, food and life in general.  It helps you learn about the relationship you have with food and how to make changes for life, not just whilst on the diet.

 

The thought of 600 calories a day scared the living daylights out of me, I could consume that in wine most nights!!  But I signed up and thought if I can get through the first week I might stand a chance.

 

The first week was hard, hunger pains, headaches, tiredness, but after 4 days I felt good and my body got used to the drastic changes.  On the first weigh in I lost 5.5lbs which I was pleased with but have done that on Weight Watchers.   But I stuck with it and after a month I had lost a stone!!  To see such quick results really spurred me on, and now after nearly 6 months I have lost over 4 stone!!  After a while, you get used to the food and I guarantee you do not get hungry, it’s not for everyone as it’s very disciplined but it worked for me!!

 

I was very hesitant in the early days to set a goal as I didn’t believe it was possible for me to ever be a “reasonable weight”, so I decided to set short term goals, the first stone, the first social event, a holiday etc.   I’m now at a stage where I am prepared to set a goal and I know I will reach it.

 

My friends and family have been so supportive and I really couldn’t have done it without them.  Socialising has been hard, so I have either opted not to go (a small sacrifice for large gain), or have had a few treats and broken the plan for special events like holidays and birthdays.  The most important change for me is that when I have broken the diet, I have got straight back on it the next day and not let one treat turn into 2,3,4…….

 

I have always been thought of as a confident person, but I think maybe the big personality was hiding within the big body.  Now I am starting to become the person I always wanted to be, inside and out.  I’ve just got back from a girly weekend in Marbella which I never would have considered 4 stone heavier.  The group ask me every year, but I always make some feeble excuse about child care or work, when actually the thought of lying on a sun lounger next to my friends was never an option.  This year, although I am not at the weight I want to be, I felt good and had an amazing time!!

 

My next challenge is to lose another stone before Christmas and look fabulous at the Christmas party.  And then who knows what 2015 will bring, I’m hoping that on the annual trip to Marbella I will be proudly sporting a bikini!!

 

I’ve shared my story as I know that so many of us struggle with weight and body image, and at 41 I could have quite easily resigned myself to the fact I would always be big and miserable!  But I now realise that it doesn’t have to be like that and it’s only me that can do anything about it, no one else.  I know it’s hard, but if I can do it, anyone can!!

2 Responses to 4 stone lighter – the new me

  1. Rosiemumofone says:

    WOW!Well done you that’s amazing xx

  2. Katy says:

    What an honest blog. And what an inspiration x

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